Blessed

My mother always told me to be good to people, to do good things, because it will come back to you.

So when I got diagnosed with MS for a fleeting second, I was a little upset. Not that I thought illness didn't happen to good people, but rather I felt like I had a life plan. A life plan that was not about selfishness, success, or money; but rather to help my community and to create positive change. I thought; this will make it harder to make those changes, this inhibits me from making the changes that I want to make. I thought, this is the exact opposite of what my mother told me, this is a bad bad thing, maybe I am not a good person.

It was not until yesterday that I realized its not about what happens to you, because lets face it we all have our battles. But rather its about the support that you get from your family, friends, and community in facing those battles, while continuing to live, struggle, and change. I have realized in no uncertain terms these last few weeks that I am loved, and that support extends beyond your immediate network. I have received kind words and prayers from people I do not know, but rather know my friends or family. This if anything makes me feel deeply blessed to be part of the network I am.

I did not realize the extent to which I was loved until I became sick, and somehow this sickness has transformed and reinvigorated me in ways I never knew it could. I pray that everyone realizes their networks, because chances are they are big and full of love :)